bowing out

let's be honest.
as much as last year was suppose to be a downer,
everyone, including myself, was busier than ever!
projects were flooding in and taking a break was impossible.
so why is 2010 the total opposite?!

this year i have only been busy
with projects during the 1st quarter of the year.
been totally FREE most of the time and
was even worried about what's next.

but i always knew everything will work out for the best.

then i landed on an exciting new project for TV!
head stylist for a new family/kids, drama/sitcom something.
i've never done anything like it before.
conceptualizing the key looks for all the lead characters,
from wardrobe guide to makeup looks to even character personality.

so fun!

shoot for 2 months.
28 days in total.
GOOD MONEY.

then today i didn't have fun anymore.
the looks need to be rushed out and approved.
wardrobe fitting needs to be scheduled ASAP.
the pace was picking up fast & it was gonna go even faster!

i was getting stressed.
i don't like stress.

as much as i know i've done the best, my best,
even after submitting the style/wardrobe board and notes,
i decided No.


i need to have fun.
i must enjoy what i do.
and i wasn't.

i'm not quitting.
just bowing out.

when i was young i told myself that if i wasn't having fun with work,
not enjoying what i was doing then i won't do it.
simple.