2011 Plans

there's a lot happening.
well, not necessarily to me or with me for that matter...
but there's a lot happening.

everyone i know is busy.
work. dateline. wedding. holidays. something is always coming up.

i'm still waiting.
waiting for great, no... GREATER things to happen.

i already have a 2011 Plans Book.
wanna know?

Mm... u have to wait.
its only November 30th, 2010.

The BIG BAD SHOT.

over the last 12 months i have not been too busy with work.
seriously... i haven't.
but i have been involved in a number of ''Reality TV"shows.
like... SuperModel Me. HP Space. Dance Star Asia & Ice Star Asia.
Clean & Clear's Top Model Best Friends.
as Creative Stylist, Head Stylist, Head Makeup Artiste, Mentor, Judge and Friend.
i know. that's a lot of roles.

don't get me wrong... I heart REALITY SHOWS.
be it working or watching one.

but did does irks me when i watch a really bad one.
fine... there are a few.
but when a local network feels its good enough to produce and air a photography contest / reality show... that takes the cake.

The BIG Shot.
the local reality show where photogs get a chance to win S$20,000/-
10 contestants who would look better on radio but shouldn't speak.
1 host who wasn't even introduced... sad.
3 judges... yawn.
30mins waste of TV time.

were they too lazy to cast or audition more people?!
good looking people?!!!
2 out of 10 is not a good number!!!

i know its a local production but does it have to look CHEAP & AMATEUR?!!
and what's with the AKA?!! who cares about AKA!
no effort was made to up the bar people. no effort.

one word. FIRE THE PRODUCER!
ok, that's 3.

and that's only from the 1st episode...
can't wait to see how much worse it can get next week!

Family.

have you met my family?
let me introduce them to you.

my mom & dad have been married for 44 years.
the inspiration in my life.
supportive. understanding. giving.
they taught me love.

and they have 4 kids. i know , they still call us Kids.
2 boys and 2 girls.
it was a trend in the late 60s to start a big family.
then the government said, "2 is Enough".

my late brother would be 43 this year but he passed away when he was 19.
car accident.
then there's me and my 2 younger sisters. 39 and 38.
i'm not married. as u would know by now.
but my sisters were. are. yes.
both were married and then divorced their 1st husband.
the older one remarried and now has a daughter. she's 9.
the younger one's divorce was finalized 4 years ago
and she has 1 boy, 19 and 1 girl, 15.
i love my sisters. my pillars.

i am not close to the relatives from my dad's side of the family.
they kinda suck.
nuff said.

but i am super close to my mom's side.
she has an elder brother who married to a malay wife.
3 younger sisters whom all married indian men and
a younger brother who married a chinese.
talk about multi-racial family upbringing.

funny thing is the 2 boys truly married into their wives' family.
the only 2 sons my grandmother has literally disappeared from her live for over 30 years.
i know i have cousins. we played together when we were younger but if i ever pass them in the street today, i wouldn't know tom from dick.
sad isn't it, not knowing your family.

but my 3 aunts are precious to me. and to each other.
they are constantly in each others life.
growing together as a family. always there thru thick & thin.
and not just for each other but also for their nephews and nieces.
they call us their own Kids.
that's nice, to know that your family is always there for you.

and of course there's my grandmother. she's Vietnamese FYI.
Mdm Nguyen Ti Yew. she's the best.
i learnt to speak dialects from her.
she's 78 and is a fighter!

and she taught me that you get your strength for life & love from
your Family.

DIY

its been 2 months.
yet nothing.
so i realize that when u need something done,
u have to do it yourself.

this is what happens when u leave things in others' hands.

u have to follow up. check on them. chase them even.
sometimes, u even have to babysit them.
it doesn't mean u don't trust them... just that I DON'T.

so i have learnt my lesson.
if u can't depend on others to get the job done... FIRE them!

start the support to stop the bullying.

is bullying the IN thing now?

teen gays are getting a huge amount of attention in the states recently
but not in a healthy way.

recently the number of gay teens or
teens believed to gay committing suicide is rising.
they hang themselves. shoot themselves in the head. jump off a bridge.
because they were bullied.

bullies who tell them that they are a waste of life.
bullies who are their classmates.
bullies who see them differently.
bullies who want to be nowhere near them.
bullies who are afraid.

i believe this is nothing new.
i believe this is even happening in asia,
we just don't know about it. and i believe that we can change this.
i believe we can stop the bullying.

it starts with educating.
gays. black. colored. fat. anorexia. midgets. etc.
we, are still a person. an individual.
no different from anyone else.
with the same desire. challenges. ambition. needs & wants as the next person.

when we witness the discrimination, we need to stand up and speak out.
and when we do that, we educate the bully. and we support the bullied.

we need to start the support to stop the bullying.

i don't want to wait till it happens to someone i know.
are u?

need to be 1st.

ever wondered why the CHINESE are good at almost anything?

today i was in the train heading from woodlands to town.
sunday. 1.30pm. super packed mrt.
and yet, the CHINESE Nationals who rushed in were able to
grap, steal, barged their way to a single seat that was free
for like 2 seconds!

their eyes prowl the cabins, praying for a free seat.
no mercy to the 6yrs old kid that was standing alone or
the uncle who needed help coming into the train,
or even the blue signs that pictures the "RESERVED SEAT"
for the more deserving passengers.

the CHINESE need to be 1st.

it explains why they perform so well at the Olympics.
why they talk LOUDLY.
why they think everyone understands their language.
why they are the largest populated country.

it also means that they have a lot of sex.

time to say NO.

ever get tired of doing ''favors''?

over the last 12 months "friends" have been asking me for "favors".
don't get me wrong!
i'm all out to help a friend and sometimes i go all out.

its just that being in an industry where
PR, CONTACTS & CONNECTIONS
play a strong role, its tough to say No.

worst still when you are expected to do "favors"
like its part of your job!

''.... hey can u check with Ms So&So if she's free to blah blah blah...."
"... oh! u must do this!!! we must support each other!"
"...... think u free for whatever whatever....?"

People Use People! so don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
but its how its done that matters.
there's a healthy why and an unhealthy way to it.

healthy is when both of you are aware and its friendly.
unhealthy is when only 1 of you is aware of it!

when its 1 person, that's just taking advantage
and its plain USING.

i'm tired of doing "favors".
enough of it already.

think its about time to say NO.

my advise...
Want something? Do it yourself.

TELL ME!

something is wrong somewhere...

my usual routine is wake up, check emails, facebook, outlook emails
and then gym. like almost everyday... cos that's free i am.

and i've had 2 personal training sessions over the past 2 years.
from a 62kg to a whopping 69kg!

of course along the way i ate,
so to shed the FATS, i started my cardio routine.
a minimum 1hr cardio session every time i hit the gym.
feels really good burning those calories.
and then i eat some more.

but now... my weight is dropping.

each time i go to the gym i seem to weigh lighter and lighter.

from 69 to 67.
then from 67 to 66.
now its 65.6kg.
no. seriously. dude.

i need to put no the weight but without the FAT!!!
if any of you know how pls TELL ME!!!

should i stop my cardio?
eat more rice?
Mm... maybe just sleep?
try Weight Gainer?

i don't know!?!!
how?
i don't wanna end up like Kumar...

just one weekend!

never in my life have i've been to this many parties
and events in just one weekend!

the singapore grand prix season that ran
from 17th-26th september was so loaded with activities
that it was almost impossible to do them all.

i was blessed to be involved in this year's events as STB wanted
to cover and document the SGP festivites.
so i had the honor & pleasure of working with Channel V/ Star TV
in the production where i styled
and worked with their hosts VJs Lisa S & Alvy.

never did i expect this.
it was 1 party after another, 1 concert after another!
how many? well, here's where i went...

Marina Bay Sands Sky Garden to shoot the opening.
the view is spectacular but still they shouldn't allow the public
up there just to earn the extra $20 and 'spoil' the atmosphere.

Dinner at KU DE TA @ MBS.
Vinny the manager is such a darling. sincere VIP treatment.

The Ferrari Party at KU DE TA Lounge.
one red hot party where people really
wouldn't stop taking pictures with Lisa S.

RedBull Party with International Grid Girls at ATTICA.
one word.
Seriously?!

The AVALON Party with international DJs & FloRida.
best rave party but FloRida is such a D.I.V.A.

Back to the Hotel.
driving 45minutes around in the carpark was no fun
with all the EXITS closed for F1.

Drunken Dumb Ass.
never give a drunk a lift... it will bite u in the ass.

The Digital Life Experience in Orchard.
Mm... ok la.

BCBG for Lisa S' wardrobe rescue.
this was where i played my Super Stylist Card & saved the day!

Red in my Head Party @ Keppel Bay.
Awesome. Awesome. Awesome.

Butter Factory with Bobby & Ritz.
the crazy Kidz pulled a GaGa on Lisa S!

ZOUK.
one world. one party.

Got my ''ALL ZONE'' pass for F1.
FINALLY!!!

Saw Adam Lambert during his 1 on 1 interview with Alvy.
it was my OMG moment.

Singapore Flyer & Bubble Tea.
simply put, high & refreshing.

Resort World Sentosa with the Miss Universe 2009 Ladies.
Mm... yah.

The new Tanjong Beach Cafe with Tracy Phillips & gang.
chilling on the beach with champagne was the best.

Amber Lounge Fashion Show.
27 models.
Sheila Sim & Junita Simon 2were the only 2 worth watching.
the rest kinda sucked.
Oh... free drinks.

Hung out with the E!News Asia Gang.
my long lost tv/programme/production/ family.

Photo with Jay Park.
the former lead of K-Pop, 2PM, is HOT!
and shy.

and back at KU DE TA for closing links.
its a wrap!

frankly, it was simply one amazing weekend,
especially with all the highlights thrown in.

but even better still were the amazing people i met.
thank u guys for everything.
thank u STB.
thank u Star TV.
thank u F1.

and thank u Daddy God!

oh... Ferrari won.

2 cents

sometimes when people share how they feel, i'm tempted to share my 2 cents.

that's the thing, when people share, they are just asking to be heard.
trust me, i know.
cos when i share, i hate it when someone starts comparing it the something they have been thru and how 'much more worst OR better it was' for them!

seriously. i know u know who i'm talking about.
they are everywhere.
the office. bus-stops. next table. family reunions.

is it really hard to find someone to just lend a ear?

now, i always carry coins with me.

hidden rules

there are hidden rules in life.
here are some.

always move in to the rear of a bus.

clean shirts leave a better first impression.

no standing on the right side of escalators.

speak well if you wanna be understood.

hold the elevator door for people coming in.

no one can do your job better than you.

don't sip from someone else's drink.
cheers!

sucks

a few blog post ago i mentioned that i'll be starting on my braces.
well, many have u have since then been asking me why i'm doing it,
and why now?

Mm... i don't like how my teeth looks?
and i'm free?
maybe?

well, did u know the pre-process is just as long?
u'll need to consult with the Dentist.
he goes thru the entire process.
x-rays are taken. moulds are made.
u come back a week later for see if u can start on the braces.

i had no such luck.
long story short,
my gum was not healthy enough for the braces.
i needed to 'fix' them first.
and that takes another 3 months of treatment before going further.
and all this because of SMOKING.

SMOKING weakens the gum.
even with the regular visits to the dentist's chair,
the problem is hard to spot.
'POCKETS' is what they are called.
the POCKET space between your tooth and your gum.
they collect food particle, germs, etc that causes the gum to weaken.
and SMOKING is a major culprit!
an x-ray is the only way to see the problem.

so now, after 2 sessions of treatment and 20years of SMOKING,
i'm waiting for my gum to improve so i can start on my braces.

sucks.
i miss my reds.

beautiful babies!

singapore is always doing her best to top the world.
personally, i don't think there's anything wrong with that.

one of the tallest hotel is found here...
even the Big Round Thing that goes in circle is now here...
talk about Casino and we have 2.
from the 1st ever F1 nite race to the madeup Merlion,
singapore, well kinda, has everything.

now its the inaugural Youth Olympic Games, Singapore.
over 3000+ youths in 1 country,
doing what they do best, PLAY.
of course the organizers have daily life enriching programmes
where they learn how to be green and blah blah blah.

wouldn't it be better if the singapore government
were to take all this one step further?!

huh? what? how?

make all the 3000+ participating youths SINGAPOREANS!
ok, maybe only 2990 since the remaining 10+ are singaporeans already.

anywho... YAHHH!!!!!
offer them citizenship
and a place in school since our school system
is the best in the world, cos we do study like till forever!

give them jobs that we are now throwing to Expats!
that way the locals won't be so bitter about losing out to a white guy!

almost instantly singapore WILL become a multi-racial country, again!
cos now there are just one too many China people around...

and we will finally have what every other country can only dream about...
BEAUTIFUL BABIES!

a country that will be so rich in multi-culture,
from food to tradition,
from lifestyle to language,
from skin color to the color of the eyes!
no more colored contacts!!!

but more importantly,
not just beautiful babies but ones who can kick serious ass in future YOG!

OH YAH!
OH YAH!
OH YAH HEY!!!

Make you feel my love...

adele.
she's the brit girl who's kinda on the plum side
but SHE can sing.

her debut album, Adele 19 was released Jan 2008.
she was 19.

like a month ago i heard her album.
not too bad actually...
fine. it was GREAT!

but my favorite track has to be 'Make You Feel My Love'.
a cover from Bob Dylan's 1997 album, Time Out of Mind
Adele has made a hit of this song.
but more than that, its the lyrics that i was drawn too.

to me its a love letter.
one that u read to know what the other person is sayin to u.
giving u hope, confidence and rest when u need it most.

to me its a love letter from God. from Jesus.
reminding me who He is.
and what i will find in Him.

a simple letter i read to put my heart at ease.

don't believe me?
read God's love letter for yourself...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZzmTFBPMhk8

Quick Update!!!

hahhaahahhaa!
just a super quick update since i've gone missing for a while!

changed to my 3rd iPhone set in 6 months today!

totally forgot about TWITTER!

4 days of pre-birthday dinners!

Avater: The Last AirBender is not a Gay Movie, its just a bad movie!

starting on my braces on thursday!

its off to Bali on saturday for my BD!

and i'm sleeping alone tonite!

bowing out

let's be honest.
as much as last year was suppose to be a downer,
everyone, including myself, was busier than ever!
projects were flooding in and taking a break was impossible.
so why is 2010 the total opposite?!

this year i have only been busy
with projects during the 1st quarter of the year.
been totally FREE most of the time and
was even worried about what's next.

but i always knew everything will work out for the best.

then i landed on an exciting new project for TV!
head stylist for a new family/kids, drama/sitcom something.
i've never done anything like it before.
conceptualizing the key looks for all the lead characters,
from wardrobe guide to makeup looks to even character personality.

so fun!

shoot for 2 months.
28 days in total.
GOOD MONEY.

then today i didn't have fun anymore.
the looks need to be rushed out and approved.
wardrobe fitting needs to be scheduled ASAP.
the pace was picking up fast & it was gonna go even faster!

i was getting stressed.
i don't like stress.

as much as i know i've done the best, my best,
even after submitting the style/wardrobe board and notes,
i decided No.


i need to have fun.
i must enjoy what i do.
and i wasn't.

i'm not quitting.
just bowing out.

when i was young i told myself that if i wasn't having fun with work,
not enjoying what i was doing then i won't do it.
simple.

busy busy busy

after such a long break today was eventful.

3 months of seriously not working,
today i had a packed full day.
and i did it without my agent nor manager.

1o:03am
Woke up to the noisy iPhone alarm.
Got dressed to look presentable for a full day out.
Really didn't know what to wear... my shoes hurt already.

11:o8am
Had a brunch meeting to discuss my coming plans.
Mm... food from Telok Ayer not too bad...
Scheduled another meeting next week.

12:27pm
Arrived at 'The Makeup Room' to shoot E! News Asia with Marion Caunter.
Just got my script and its not looking good... TOO MUCH WORDS!!!

02:45pm
Smoke break.
2 more shots to go.
Nice Heels.

03:15pm
Wrap!
Rushing to SHISEIDO for a MAJOLICA MAJORCA meeting.

03:45pm
New recept. Mm...
Last to know my MJ Trainers left.
Eve left too?!
New Chapter 28 Media Launch on 6th August. very exciting.

04:22pm
Requested for my SHISEIDO MEN's products from Iris (begged, actually).
Collected Chapter 28 MJ Samples.
Very nice colors!!!

05:02pm
Arrived at Creative E World LATE!
Met Ronald who now has to sync my Outlook Express to my MAC.
i know... i need someone to do it for me...

06:o5pm
Done for the day.
Dinner?

become a habit.

what a weekend!

with the great singapore sale &
the singapore food festival all wrapping up in 1 weekend,
i decided to start my saturday early!

got up at 9:48am and left the house in 20mins.
i know, right!
getting ready and leaving the house in 20mins is nothing but...
who wakes up before lunch?!!
all this was because i wanted to catch DESPICABLE Me before lunch.
but apparently there are people who wake up early to go to the movies?!!
so imagine my surprise... no tickets!
how dare they!

not wanting get all worked up, i went early shopping.
it was strange walking into boutiques and stores where you are the only one wandering thru the racks and shelves.
but i have to say, SERVICE in the morning is GOOD.
they must really be happy to serve u or had their morning coffee, strong.

shopping on the weekend, you get to see people dressed in their "best".
guys especially.
they make so much effort to dress... well... stylish... try la.
of course it doesn't work... but i must give them "A" for...
still thinking... ahh...

one was spotted wearing black cropped shorts, white shirt, big bag and... BOOTS!
the best part was when he was walking up the steps into the mall,
the hand went straight into the pocket, just like on a Runway.

another two friends looked like they had the day of from the salon.
dressed impeccably, they really looked the part.
electric blue shorts, stripped shirt, formal white dress shoe and hairy legs.
the other, skinny capri pants, long sleeved shirt and black loafers.
all 2 sizes too small for a guy who was 5''1 with a waist of 32''-33''.
hair in place, of course.

then there was another, shopping with the family at isetan supermarket.
black zegna jeans, white gucci sneakers & belt and TOPMAN shirt.
he was about 16.
17 the most.

well, in the end i did get to watch a movie.
had great lunch and dinner.
and shop a bit.

so waking up before lunch on a saturday wasn't that bad.
just hope it doesn't become a habit.

seriously... TV?

seriously... TV?

i love watching TV.
trust me when i say LOVE.
my friends know NOT to call me while i watch the telly.
i AM dead to the world even during the commercial break.

so it does bother me when i watch STUPID & Friends on TV.

the News on 5 is one.
i know its hard to condense what's happening in Singapore
and around the world in 30mins.
but giving bite size information in not NEWS!
you can't have the anchor just HIGHLIGHT headlines and call it News.
and since when do reporters ACT?
don't we have that on The NOOSE already?

what about commercials with MediaCorp actors in them?
don't they act enough already?
now they have to sell products they pretend to like or use?
strangely enough, their voices are dubbed.
Mm... maybe Jack Neo should do a new movie where the actors act as real actors to act like they don't act enough and call it...
MONEY NOT ENOUGH ACTUALLY!!!

what about that donkey on a parachute to promote tourism Mexico or something?
that's an Ad that made News .
wow. a 2 in 1!

all this AND more on local TV.

maybe i should just get out more.

ready?

i love to sing but many would not like that.
as much as i think i have the voice of an angel,
others disagree... swines.

but isn't singing the best.
no matter how you are feeling, there's always a song for you.
and if there isn't then you can just make one up!

i sing all the time.
at home. in bed. in the bus. train. walking down in town. in a club.
most of all, in church.
its the best time to sing and sing out loud!
cos in church noone is judging.
specially not God.
He likes my singing.
and because He likes it, i wanna share it with the world!

ready?